Jesus open my eyes...

Early in the morning a servant of the Holy Man got up and went out. Surprise! Horses and chariots surrounding the city! The young man exclaimed, "Oh, master! What shall we do?"
He said, "Don't worry about it—there are more on our side than on their side."
Then Elisha prayed, "O God, open his eyes and let him see."
The eyes of the young man were opened and he saw. A wonder! The whole mountainside full of horses and chariots of fire surrounding Elisha! II Kings 6: 15-17

I have been acting like Elisha's servant. Today I read this and I am thinking about how my eyes have been gazing at the seemingly impossible instead of the One who makes it all possible. Today I asked Jesus to open my eyes. Today I am choosing to believe that the solution to my "great problem" has already been worked out. Why do I close my eyes when I have known all along that the God of heaven, Creator of all things, has not forgotten me? If I spent more time reading Bible stories like this my eyes would remain open and I would remember that Jesus is faithful!

..more than all I ask or imagine!

Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work in us, to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever. Ephesians 3:20 "More than all I ask or imagine", I like that part. I like that part because I have a great imagination. I can imagine all kinds of good things. Today I went for a walk with the children and I thanked Jesus all the way there and back. I thanked him and Heavenly Father for being so gracious to me and listening to me and answering me and for giving me such a wonderful life. When I got home and put those peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and chips on the table for those hungry children, I sat down. I sat down and I imagined a room full of gentlemen sitting around a large conference table haggling over how much they were going to pay me for my work. And I imagined Jesus and Father encouraging them, whispering, "pay her a good wage," "offer her a good contract." You see it is grand to imagine and then I read in Ephesians that Jesus can do more then I can ask or imagine. Well in that case imagine what I just imagined and then imagine even better then that till you can't imagine anymore, and that won't even be the beginning of what Father and Jesus can do. Whew!!! We are blessed beyond measure to have such goodness on our side! I have asked I have imagined and now I am waiting. I am going to get a happy surprise! Watch and see!

My Passion

I am believing Jesus for the near impossible in the eyes of some. Because I believe he is Jehovah-jireh I don't think anything is too hard for him. He is my provider. So much for that doubting stuff. I am going to post some adoption tickers for the 4 children that I want to adopt. Four you say?, yes 4! I am believing Jesus for 4 children because I can! I am the nanny to 4 children and I enjoy every minute of it, why not be the mother to 4 more? I have 3 biological children all grown up and one son adopted from Romania, he's grown up also. I am starting over because I am young, full of energy, and because Jesus told me I can. In his time I am going to get Jamie Elizabeth from an orphanage in Siberia and two 5 year old girls Hannah and Sarah from the St Petersburg area and one Indian Prince named Joshua Naresh. He is 5 years old also. I have made tickers to celebrate their homecoming and show that I believe!







These are the things Jesus and I need to do in the next few months. #1 secure a good contract. #2 make arrangements for a homestudy and sign contracts with adoption agencies and pay the money. #3 go look at that fine house that is for sale behind this one and make an offer. #4 fill out the immigration paper work. #5 see the tax man. #6 visit the docter. #6 buy house, furnish it finish homestudy. #7 put dossier together get apostilles and other legal stamps and signatures. #8 pay more money. #9 pay more money. #10 reserve airline tickets, plan for trip, and pay more money, bring children home. YaY!!!

All consuming vision...

That treasured thing I gave up back in February, well I took it back for awhile. That treasured thing that I wanted so bad that I gave up to give all my time to this new assignment Jesus gave me to complete. That treasure started interfering again because I kept thinking about it. I kept thinking about him. Men can throw us women off completely at times. I gave the whole relationship to Jesus and I tried real hard to forget about him and go on. Everyday I kept thinking and I kept asking Jesus to help me keep my mind on other things. Jesus helped me by reminding me of the street children and orphans I had vision for in the past. He reminded me that I didn't think about them anymore. He asked me why I didn't believe anymore for the vision that he gave me. The vision where I take care of street children and adopt children from orphanages. The vision where I go and take or send supplies and money and things that the children need to the safe houses in India or the orphanages in Russia. The vision that before took up all my thoughts and energy, that vision. The vision that I put on hold and forgot about when I met that man and started dreaming about him instead. I believe he is a good man but he is not what I need right now. Friendship is what I want but somehow our hearts got twined around each other real tight and I don't exactly know what else to do but let this whole relationship go and devote myself to what Jesus has called me to do at this time. I laid my Issac on the alter so to speak. I almost know how Abraham felt. To give Yahweh the only son ,the child he loved and counted dear. To lay Issac his only child on the alter and offer him to Yahweh. Abraham did it he laid him down and gave him up and right at the final moment Yahweh stopped him and let him keep Issac. This man I love he is the only man I have ever loved. I do not want to love any other man. I have not let myself love any other man. I have laid my only love on the alter. The only man I ever felt like I would marry without a second thought, that man. I gave him up to Yahweh with this prayer, "Yahweh I give you this man. I want to do the thing you have called me to do. Because of this assignment I have accepted from you if I don't get to love him and marry him please send him a good wife that loves Jesus that will love him and his children also. Take good care of him, give him grace because I love his soul and his children and I want them all to be saved and live with you one day." The hardest prayer I have ever prayed! The ultimate prayer of letting go. The prayer where I asked Yahweh to give my treasure to another if that's what it takes to fulfill the vision Jehovah breathed into my life. There is pain my soul, I am missing him. I am hoping beyond all hope that there is a ram in the thicket and that I will get my beloved back. I am hoping like Abraham that Jehovah-jireh will provide a lamb. I have peace even with this pain. I have peace and freedom to dream and believe the vision. When that first child comes home from the orphanage, when another safe house is opened, when those supplies are safely inside the walls of the places where they need to be I will have more joy then I will know what to do with. I will celebrate , write about it, and tell everyone that Jesus is faithful and that the things He asks us to do are the things that lead to true happiness!

Something good is going to happen to me......

Psalm 98

Sing a new song to the LORD! He has worked miracles, and with his own powerful arm, he has won the victory.

The LORD has shown the nations, that he has the power to save bringing justice.

God has been faithful in his love for Israel, and his saving power is seen everywhere on earth.

Tell everyone on this earth to sing happy songs in praise of the LORD.

Make music for him on harps. Play beautiful melodies!

Sound the trumpets and horns and celebrate with joyful songs for our LORD and King!

Command the ocean to roar with all of its creatures, and the earth to shout
with all of its people.

Order the rivers to clap their hands, and all of the hills to sing together.

Let them worship the LORD! He is coming to judge everyone on the earth,and he will be honest and fair.

God has been faithful in his love for Israel, and his saving power is seen everywhere on earth.

Tell everyone on this earth to sing happy songs in praise of the LORD.

Make music for him on harps. Play beautiful melodies!

Sound the trumpets and horns and celebrate with joyful songs for our LORD and King!

Command the ocean to roar with all of its creatures, and the earth to shout with all of its people.

Order the rivers to clap their hands, and all of the hills to sing together.

Let them worship the LORD! He is coming to judge everyone on the earth, and he will be honest and fair.

Contemporary English Version (CEV)
Copyright © 1995 by American Bible Society

I read this wonderful Psalm this morning after my fearful, begging for mercy episode. I like the 1st verse especially well: "Sing a new song to the LORD! He has worked miracles, and with his own powerful arm, he has won the victory".I am rejoicing in this because my El Shaddai has worked miracles and won the victory for me! I am so happy so very happy and so I've started to sing like the the blind man...

"Something good is going to happen to me,

happen to me

this very day,

something good is going to happen to me,

Jesus of Nazareth is passing this way!"

You and I we don't have to be afraid anymore because something good is going to happen to us this very day, Jesus of Nazareth is passing our way!